the hallucinations are not my friends
the writer of this blog (me, emma) hallucinates. she's been hallucinating for the better part of a year. she's fallen into drug abuse, she's been arrested, she's been in jail before. emma's hallucinations are happiest when she is miserable, taking things out on herself. any way she can make something her fault, or an inherent fault of herself that cannot be healed or mended, is a win for her hallucinations
emma is getting on the right medication. she'll stop hallucinating soon. but it seems like everything in emma's life has to get extremely worse before it gets better
emma will repeat this to herself because it is true. she'll use overall good quotes that would help herself keep going against her, because it is what the hallucinations want
emma is going to stop hallucinating soon. because it is what emma wants. emma refuses to let them win. she refuses to be told that she is defective, that she has not endured trauma her entire life. that what she is, isn't
i won't let them win. i won't let the trauma win. i won't be trapped by my own mind. i will prevail, i will live, i will be happy